11 things

11 things i meant by texts that read “i miss you”

1

I have never wanted to be held

for fear of gravity multiplying without your strength

but I find you standing not above or ahead, but beside

with your hand placed quiet on the secret part of my spine

in case my legs stutter

or the ground tries to break my stride

2

I think sometimes, of us

but only when my heart cooks brain

and the world exhales in full stomach sleep

3

We are not a match
it’s just that your colors complement mine

4

You put smiles on my face

not just big loud kinds but sly lip curves

I wanted to tell you it’s okay if you’re not ready for words

maybe only silence has enough room for us to live in

and because your quiet touches are the best

5

I respect your being

even if it does not involve being near mine.

But I’d rather us be in the same place at the same time,

if that works for you too.

6

your fingers don’t just move but dance
sometimes when I see what your hands are capable of

I feel lucky for what you’ve created in my chest

7

I wanted you to know that I love your skin
not because your tone gives mine depth- and it does

but because your pigment

was mixed from strong calm pride and

closed off pores

to hide your insides from closed minds

8

I hope you know I’d hold your weight as my own

or just acknowledge that it’s never been mine to hold

9

I don’t mind if you change my name in your phone

as long as you let me in your nooks

so I can think you kept them soft just for me

10

I wonder sometimes, if the moon ever wanted the sun

that her dark beams don’t long for some light

and the sun just wants some time to cool off in her night.

11

I know that we are worlds apart